So I’m browsing Slashdot the other day and Hemos posts an article about Blogs. I read. It sounds really interesting. I read a few examples. Very interesting. I see a post by the owner of Livejournals describing LJ, and think ‘You know? This could be a superior MB for my evil purposes.’ I set up my account despire the Error! messages from the slashdotting, pony up five bucks so I can customize the HTML. I add ‘Improfanfic’ to my interests, on a whim.
Whaddya know; NekoNeko’s got one of these things. She was the only other one with Improfanfic as an interest. Cool! Clickety.
Whoa! LOTS of Impropeople are actually here! Awesome! What’s this ‘friends list’ thing? Well, might as well add some names to it of folks I know. Clickety. And I’ll just check the ‘friends page’, see what it is…
Actually, I’ve talked to Del and Ard and others and I’m a little less scared now, but damned if that didn’t spook me. I’ll be the first to admit that most ‘friends’ I have online I only know in a paling around, buddy-buddy sort of way in chat; very superficial. Finding out about their family problems, personal trauma, betrayals, backstabbing and more in a flood of 25 responses on one page was a pretty overwhelming surprise.
Especially for someone like me. If I see someone having problems, I get this instinctive urge to help them figure things out, to make things better — and to share that feeling of worry and depression. I don’t think I’m that great at doing that though, although I’ve been told I do okay. I’m going to try to juggle that urge. I’m not accusing you guys of bringing down my day, but I do feel like I fell into the rabbit hole, so I’m going to have to find ways to cope with that. I will. You guys ARE good friends to me, and I’m happy to read your journals and I’m happy to respond and I’m probably gonna hit chat more often now. I just hope you understand if I fumble a few times.
One thing I felt I should say, though… I’m not going to get involved in HHHS politika. I understand there’s a lot of strange stuff going on right now with trust issues and people doing others wrong. I’m not going to take any sides on any of these issues. I’m happy to stay an outsider in that regard, at least.
If there was a point to this message, I might’ve lost it. But I did say I hope you understand if I fumble a few times, I’m pretty new at this.