UPDATE 9:10pm. The next two scenes are now posted, and include the bit I’m talking about. I may get another scene or two in before I go to bed, I’ll update this entry again if so.
UPDATE 11:30pm. I got scene 9 out and ended on a most evil cliffhanger! Wai!
So, the next part of SN7 has been sitting in my head for awhile. I know what needs to be done action-wise… but the pscyhological justifications for the actions, those were harder to think up. That’s because we’re re-visiting the grounds of social heirarchy, bullying, sadism and schoolyard torment; and finding realistic justifications for that beyond the cop-out ‘These people are simply jerks’ is difficult.
I go and I re-read the Voices from the Hellmouth series for inspiration, but I think I’ve found a flaw in myself. I had it too lucky. Despite growing up COMPLETELY different physically than any other student in my school… I was never an outcast. I wasn’t picked on, made fun of or mocked in any way Himei was. Not in any way the Hellmouth readers were. I didn’t experience that kind of torment and I didn’t hear of any tales similar to it while I was in school.
Mom says this is because the way I carried myself deflected all the heat. How? I wasn’t particularly confrontational. I was mostly a normal kid, not too quiet, not too loud, not strange beyond being short. And I guess that works, but it’s still bizarre that in an environment as hellacious as this is supposed to be, NOTHING wicked came my way.
I have to wonder, how is this sort of wickedness to anybody POSSIBLE? I can see people being evil enough to perpetrate it but you’d think it won’t last. How could the kind of systematic abuse that’s being detailed go on without any kind of cesation, without anybody stopping it? Can administrators really be that stupid not to see something on the scale we’re talking about? I’m juggling this as I try to work out the justifications and logic for SN7. What line has to be crossed before we have something that goes beyond ‘playful bullying’? And if someone ‘squeals’, what will happen? Will it be ignored? Will action be taken and justice reign over all?
I don’t know. The whole issue feels alien and distant to me, even if it pisses me off to no end when I read about this sort of thing. But in a way, I feel like Seiki does… innocent and amazed that such things are within the realm of possibility. He’s been at Wazaru all this time and hasn’t noticed or hasn’t understood the kind of stratification the Fashion Club’s guilty of.
And I hope that doesn’t mean my writing will take it a step too far or a step not far enough, because I want this aspect to be realistic. It’s too serious to overdramatize it and it’s too serious to trivialize it. It’s important to me that I get this right because I know I have readers who are going through this, and I want to help, even if I’m only helping by providing a fictional exploration.