Well, Christmas is upon us once more. But I’m not sure it really touched down here. (The following might not make much sense, but I’m feelin’ emotional and you’re gonna read it regardless.)
The “holiday season” as it were has always been one of my favorite times of the year. The air is crisp and cold… if it snows or even is thinking about snowing, you can smell it. Around here it tends to just rain around Christmas, but you can tell it wants to be snowing.
Things feel peaceful, especially at night… lights off a christmas tree glowing in a dark room, as I’ve always been a fan of alternative forms of illumination… the starless suburban night sky, dominated by clouds or darkness but always with the moon nice and bright… things winding down, the year coming to a close, the anticipation of what’s gonna be unwrapped that night even if you already know what you’re getting.
I wrote Juyza’s Lyric around this time of year, along with some of my best work. It’s a contemplative time, simply because the atmosphere is conductive to it… things feel more twilight than daylight, the mood is soft and slightly surreal. Definitely one of my favorite times of the year…
But this year, it hasn’t really hit in full. Maybe 25% strength. I can’t quite put my finger on why — maybe it’s all the work I’ve had to do on the job, or the hectic social fun I’ve had lately or just the pacing of life throwing things off. Maybe I haven’t been outside enough. Whatever the reason, I’m not feeling the vibe like I usually do. It’s a little disappointing… not depressing, per se, but it dumps the whole positivity of December into a neutral stance.
I have a few days off work. I’ve done one thing each day: Fri-Gaming, Sat-Movies, Sun-LOTR, Mon-XMas, Tues-Family Visit… and Weds-Rest, most likely. It’s a busy schedule, but I’m not complaining since I managed to get UE02 done. It always feels more satisfying, more worthwhile if I make headway on my creative projects in addition to the usual rigamarole mixture of social fun and preplanned events.
Mmm. Not sure if I really had a point here. But there’s a distinct lack of magic right now, and I wanted to talk about it.
Don’t forget, UE02 is done and I’m soliciting comments in the previous posting’s thread.