I don’t quite know why, but after intense social situations — once everybody’s out the door and it’s over — I get this weird depressive emotional crash. Tonight was no exception. A fairly pedestrian PPV didn’t help much.
I hate being unproductive. I didn’t feel like working on AMH or any writing for that matter. I couldn’t think of any revolutionary new creative concepts to pull me out of this multi-week doldrum. Talked to delfina a bit about it, passed some jokes back and forth, and thought “Well, I’m depressed, let’s see if I can channel that into something worthwhile.”
I fired up Acid Music and tinkered around and an hour later, I had a moody, quirky trip-hop country song very reminiscent of Gorillaz. Felt much better, too.
One thing I like about my music is that I can have a definite end product in one night of hacking, or occasionally two. It’s instant gratification, which is important in times of creative famine. If things click (they don’t always) you get a song out of it which captures whatever mood you’re hoping to immortalize in loop sequence. Considering a story, even divided into episodes/chapters can take weeks to produce, music makes for a good quick fix. Of course, my music isn’t particularly good, but I don’t care; it’s good enough for me, and that’s all that matters.
I don’t have this new song (or a few others I’ve got rendered to MP3) posted anywhere online yet; my AcidPlanet page is a wee bit stale. I might add them later to AP, but I’ve gotten disenfranchised with the Ratings system at AP… I’m tired of the work you have to put in every day to maintain the popularity contest there. Right now I just want to produce for myself. And for you guys, if you want to listen too. It’s all good, yo.
I’m considering running a contest or something to give away a copy of both my albums (about 40-50 minutes of music on each). Yeah, you can download the MP3s, but I don’t have all the MP3s posted and the CD audio versions would sound muy better. Would anybody be keen?