I just checked Neverwinter Vault to see if anybody had reviewed Pest Control.
Multiple positive reviews, rated 7.35/10, and it’s been downloaded 543 times in one day — which is more often than some of the 10-rated modules on the site.
…wow. Well, what can I say, I’m a junkie for praise and attention. I admit to this. So that tickles me pink, I tells you. Sadly, all is not wine and roses.
It’s starting to frustrate me a bit that I don’t have enough time for all the things I want to achieve creatively. Let’s run down the list.
UE, lord knows I’ve got folks who want to read it. Penultima, the flashy new project which is actually an old teenage years project I never got to finish. Online RPing… ugh, I’ve got friends I haven’t played with (or talked to very much) in a long time because I can’t find time for this. There’s even older projects — I just remembered last night ‘Oh yeah, I own that PPX muck, don’t I?’ and haven’t logged in to do wizardly things in weeks. I can’t really help Improfanfic any even in retirement because I lack time to keep up with the community. My music? Other than some UE background music I whipped up, I haven’t done anything with it. And Ultra? It’s totally backburnered until Kristen gets me her episode, and frankly, even if it came in tomorrow I probably wouldn’t write the finale for a long time. Finally, even if it’s not a pure creative project, I haven’t cracked open the latest Emulaxian beta and I haven’t finished the tutorial docs I promised Peter.
All that plus my day job plus socializing with my RL friends (not that I’m complaining about being with my friends!) means I do not have enough time to get the things done I want to.
So, what do I do? I prioritize. And that’s a problem, because I have to ask: do I prioritize by what appeals most to me, or by what appeals most to the people who enjoy the end result of my work? Yes yes, I know, we’ve gone over this before and folks are generally saying “Do what you want, man, we don’t mind” but it still gnaws at me sometimes.
Well… hopefully I can get SOME UE done this four-day weekend, along with some Penultima, along with the anime party we’re having on Saturday. It’s hard to focus on multiple concurrent projects.
My fun = My stress. There’s something fundementally flawed about that.