Okay, editing previous entry to flesh it out a bit. Here’s how my weekend went.
You may recall me lamenting my complete lack of creativity on friday. You’d figure that’d mean a frustrating weekend of nothingness, but I actually kept myself occupied well enough to stave off that feeling for a long time. Friday I was downloading and watching some fun 50’s/60’s era “social education films”… you know, like “Am I Popular?” and “Duck and Cover”. You can find them at this site. I highly recommend the Your Name Here Story (a PARODY of industrial promotional films), and Am I Popular?.
Saturday I was gaming, doing some terrific RP, and playing The Sims Online. I figured I’d give it a go after the latest patches, and sure enough, they’ve improved motive and skill decay; I can go a long time without having to ‘green up’ and I’m not decaying at all. What’s more, if I log out for the day and return the next day my motives are largely refilled! Handy! Of course, this doesn’t solve the problem that my “gameplay” consists of watching my sim type at a computer for hours and hours just to raise my logic skill… but my hope is that once i get enough money to run a business (in my case, a silly avant-garde playhouse) I’ll be good to go. We’ll see.
Sunday I did more Sims macroing, then it was time for ALL of my friends to drop in for video games, Powerpuff Girls Movie, Hellsing and the Sopranos. Much fun was had by all; Josh dug Contra, I got to play some Crazy Taxi even if it gave me carpal.
But as mentioned, The Sopranos finale was a dour, depressing, spiteful little affair… and that plus the strange emotional crash I get after an especially intense social occasion left me pretty much crushed for no adequate, logical reason afterward. I can’t explain why this happens but it does happen — I feel exhausted without actually being tired, and depression kicks in with a vengance.
Decision one was to call in sick to work. I just couldn’t get to sleep and I needed to do SOMETHING to turn my mood around. (It means slacking off, but I couldn’t get around it.) However, lo and behold, I did get my mood turned around… via creative work. It’s just the ticket for soothing feelings of bleak despair. I fired up Acid Music, and composed up a 21 minute ‘megamix’ of the Elegia Eternum soundtrack, with vocal clips here and there — sort of like the American McGee’s Alice soundtrack or the 7th Guest bonus soundtrack. I’ll post details on where you can get the MP3 later. It may have some frequency normalization issues but I’m no professional at this.
So today I woke up around noon fairly well rested and feeling okay. We’ll see where it goes from here.