I’ve got Trillian installed now — I was sick of ICQ’s ads, and tired of being unable to send files. Unfortunately file sending still doesn’t work, so I suspect a problem with my ISP considering I’ve shut down my firewall and fiddled with the router a few times.
But the practical upshot of this is that I can now add folks to my IM who exclusively use AIM or MSN or even Yahoo’s. If you’re using those and would like to keep in touch with me let me know your user id name handle thingy and I’ll add you.
Weirdly, once I connected up to MSN, like seven people apparently had added me to their buddy lists despite my not actually using MSN ever before. Odd.
I’m doing a bit of research into the psychology of abuse, kidnapping, etc. in an effort to work through EE2’s characterization. This ONE character is giving me the hardest time; every other one has a distinctly simple neurotic issue, like dishonor or amnesia or sheer denial. This particular one though was subjected to years of systematic abuse. I had two options here, really — do the legwork and be realistic, or just skip that altogether and make up some safer, easier thing to present for her.
But even with research, I’m going to leave a LOT of the messy details out… they aren’t needed. I was watching Seven with the screenwriter’s commentary on for inspiration, and they pointed out how in the movie, you never really SEE anything. You find out about the aftermath, through people describing it or glimpses, but it’s not a particularly explicit movie — he had an anecdote about some lady harassing him saying he was an awful person for showing the head in the box at the end. His reply? “But I didn’t actually show the head in the box.” The emotional impact was strong enough to convince this person they saw an explicit detail that wasn’t even there! That’s what I want to achieve; subtlety and implication above the kind of schlock you’d find in pulp magazines like ‘True Crime Mysteries!’ which always feature a scared looking woman on the cover and titles like ‘The passion strangler, who killed for lust!’. Bleck.
I have a hard time really cranking on a project if any one aspect of it is eluding my grasp, so even if a lot of EE2 is sketched out, I can’t WORK on that stuff until I work through this issue. It has to, on the whole, rock. If it doesn’t rock I can’t do it.
Update: I’ve thought it over and done the research… and I don’t think I can feasibly go whole hog on this character. To be realistic about it, which I feel I’d have to be in order to show respect for anyone who’s gone through similar, it just wouldn’t fit the context of a game properly without being excessive in any form.
So, I hammered out some details over my swank new IM with a friend, and I think I have a simpler neurotic situation to drop this character into which will still be quite horrid, but not as intensely uncomfortable.
Yes, I realize I’m being vague. I’m trying to avoid spoilers while still working it out on paper — half the value of a journal is to jot down my thoughts, after all, keeps ’em organized. Point is, my writer’s instincts here say that this won’t work and I developed an alternate plan instead. I’ll stick to SN for the ‘whole hog’ exploration, where it fit better.